Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Worldwide News

From Michael:
30 April 2008

By now, the entire world is aware that we have commenced our operation in Helmand province in southern Afghanistan . I was fortunate to spend some of the operation in our Combat Operations Center (COC). The COC is the nerve center of Marine Corps combat operations. Everything that is happening on the battlefield is being broadcasted and relayed into the COC via real-time video feed, internet relay chat, and radio. The COC is basically a bunker full of desks with computers, wires, cables, telephones, and, of utmost importance, coffee mugs. I close my eyes and I can hear the constant coughing sound of all the various radios. Marines from all walks of life, various occupational specialties (I hear that there is even a lawyer in there), and assorted ranks staff the COC. Everything is done at a rapid, but not frantic, pace. Marines cheer whenever one of “our boys” who is out on the battlefield, doing the actual fighting, reports back that one of our jets has just dropped a 2000 lb bomb on an enemy target.

So what do I, the lawyer, do in the COC? Imagine Thanksgiving dinner, a big one with all the fixin’s. The kind where family that you only see once per year (sometimes for good reason) comes over and you have to get out the fold-up card table and folding chairs. The kids sit on the little card table somewhere off to the side so that they are free to do kid things and make a relative mess without being too distracting. Well, if the COC is Thanksgiving dinner, then I am sitting at that little fold-up card table for the kids. My job is very vague and ambiguous, just as any lawyer would want it to be, because that means I get to define my own job description. Generally speaking, I am here to provide instant analysis and advice on Rules of Engagement (ROE), Geneva Conventions, etc. Without going into details, assume that there is a enemy machine gun mounted on the back of a pickup truck. The barrel of the gun is aimed at our troops, but we don’t see any bad guys manning the weapon or driving the truck. They want to know if, in my expert legal opinion, we can destroy the truck and the gun. Then the scenario changes, and now there are bad guys near the gun but not manning it. The scenario can change dozens of times and my job is to quickly and clearly explain what we can and cannot do in terms of blowing stuff up.

It is hard to get a grasp on how big of a deal this mission is to the rest of the world. There are reporters everywhere. NBC’s the Today Show, Fox News, USA Today, the Baltimore Sun, the Associated Press, etc. are all here to report on what we are doing. It is kind of surreal to see things unfold in person, and then see them appear on all the news media outlets within hours.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Please pray for my friend and her baby

I want to invite anyone that can to pray for one of my closest friends. She and her husband (Bri and Jeff) had been trying for 4 years to get pregnant. I was able to be with her for a sonogram and we were able to see the baby and everything looked great (and we suspected a little boy). She was relieved that everything looked to be normal and progressing well. However, she went to a sonogram last week and the doctor found a concern and so they did some further testing. She sent me this e-mail this week:

I got some very unfortunate news from the doctor this week and our baby (a boy) has a problem with his heart. The fetal specialist and the heart specialist we were referred to (a sadly pro-choice bunch) gave us next to a zero chance that Smurf [affectionate name to pre-born baby] could survive, but my own doctor (who is more pro-life than I ever would have guessed) called me this morning to tell me that he thinks the two specialists are being too pessimistic.

Starting tomorrow I'm going on bed-rest and starting some medicines that they hope will be helpful while I work from home. Joe [boss at work] was incredibly kind about this which was a massive answer to a very sudden prayer. Still, even my own doctor says the chances are low no matter what we try, outside of prayer. Basically I need Smurf to grow another few pounds, last another six weeks in the womb, and not haveheart failure. None of those things are incredibly likely without prayer, but I happen to be one of the luckiest people in the world when it comes to finding prayer warriors quickly.

God is good, and he is a God of life, so no matter what happens, we'll all be fine. Feel free to share this request with anyone you know, the more the merrier.

Please pass this on to other prayer warriors you know,
Thank you,
Kelle

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Please, Comment here: Follow Up

First of all, thank you to everyone who has commented on my "Wal-mart Blog Post". It was great to read everyone's comments. You really made me think about this and determine what really bothered me about the whole situation.

Some of you commented that the lady was just following the rules. Some of you commented that she was crazy and should have just let me in. Others thought of some ideas that Wal-mart could do to fix the situation. You offered solutions such as kid-friendly dressing rooms to keep children secured or locked in with me. Thank you so much for ideas to offer solutions to Wal-mart.

However, I realize now that my overall frustration and concern about the situation is that it exempliflies legalism. Unfortunately, our ways today have led us to following blindly rules or people without actually thinking through our decisions.

Thinking outside the box is simply not done and therefore, we become trapped into the rules that are supposed to be helping us. Legalism is defined as "strict adherence, or the principle of strict adherence, to law or prescription, esp. to the letter rather than the spirit" (Dictionary.com). We find ourselves being slaves to rules and authority to a point that we don't even feel comfortable thinking for ourselves. And if we do try thinking for ourselves, we're called disrespectful. However, I like to call it resourcefulness.

The irony of my dress search is a basic case in point. I still needed a dress so I dragged the kids to another store and selected 11 dresses to try on with the "help" of the three kids. I had a cart still because I need Roman strapped in and some help in carrying all the dresses. When I made it to the dressing room the lady didn't seem to have any problem with the cart. However, she had a problem with the count. I was only allowed 8 dresses. So instead of turning me away or telling me I would have to try on 8 and then come out for more with the three children, she simplified it with some resourcefulness. She offered to give me the card for 8 dresses and one of the children a card for 3 dresses, therefore meaning that we would have all dresses accounted for and meeting the requirement for items per person. I truly appreciated her resourcefulness. And ironically, I ended up spending $75 on dresses AND shoes. Wal-Mart missed out there!

The reality is I will probably still continue on at Wal-Mart, but I will still be frustrated with the problems of our constricted way of thinking. In so many ways this is damaging to our communities, our children, and our nation. I believe it's the root of why we find so many people becoming dependent upon others and unable to provide for themselves.

I feel so strongly this is a serious issue for our nation, I may decide to blog more later. I think there's a link between this and personal respect for ourselves leading us to settle for less than our best. But, it's late and I'm tired. Let me know what you think...

Reporters and a News Report

From Michael:

27Apr08

We have been taken over by reporters. Our mission is apparently very high profile. We have MSNBC, Fox News, and a British newspaper here. Everyone seems to hate the media. I think that is a mistake. You create friction with them, and there is an air of distrust. I think we should develop a rapport with them, and allow them to see the human side of us. We may be Marines, but we are also husbands, fathers, uncles, brothers, and best friends, just like the rest of America . As a whole, the military does a poor job of portraying this side of military life. If we don’t do it, who else but the media? And if we don’t trust them, and they don’t understand us, then the story isn’t going to be very good, is it? So I sit down with them during meals, talk to them like normal people, call them by first name (one of them is actually pretty famous), and just act myself around them. No reason to fear them or despise them. They are just doing a job, and they are even sharing in our misery while doing it.

Here is a news report on what Michael's doing right now:

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/24337888#24337888

Afghan Surroundings

From Michael:
26April08

We left our base several days ago. The flight was approximately 1 hour to our location. The landscape was as barren as a lunar landscape. As I peered out of the back of the helicopter, all I could see was a sea of dirty sand, periodically interrupted with dots of green, like freckles. I was very close to becoming air sick. You see, the military didn’t exactly have comfort in mind when designing the inside of the helicopter. There are few windows, and they are too high to see out of anyway. It is hot and humid, as the cargo bay is basically another mechanism by which the engine cools. And the smell, the constant smell of JP8 fuel, mixed with hydraulic fluid that leaks everywhere! They say that the aircraft we took is a workhorse and a sturdy aircraft. I don’t doubt it. They also say that as long as the thing is leaking oil, all is well. It’s when it stops leaking oil that you have cause for concern. I guess I never progressed far enough as an engineering major to fully grasp that concept.

Our destination can only be described as an oasis in the desert. There is literally nothing here. It is a massive fortress constructed of hesko walls and little else. Hesko is basically a big reinforced bin that can be filled with sand. It erects quickly and easily, and is relatively effective against small-arms and mortar fires. The only problem with hesko is that it radiates heat…quite well for that matter. The daytime temperatures out here soar into the 100s with ease. I saw a thermostat that measured 99.7…in the shade. Our hesko bunkers soak up this heat like a chamois, reach saturation point in the late afternoon, and then mercilessly release the unwelcome heat at night. We are crowded into our bunkers like sardines. Real estate is limited. Our bunker is about the size of the average American living room, and there are no fewer than 10 of us living in here. The dust is terrible, and we are constantly blowing our noses. Add to that the smell of feet that have been in the same boots for days in this heat, and the smell is almost unbearable. It reminds me of the football locker room after summer two-a-day practices in Texas . I would almost rather be back in the helicopter…almost. It is cooler outside than inside at night, and I would like to sleep outside, except that I don’t have a mosquito net. Bugs here are getting bad this time of year. It’s spring, and they are emerging from winter’s slumber. Inside our bunkers at night, we can hear the scurrying of mice foraging for food at night. The result is that no food is permitted to be eaten or opened in our bunkers. Instead, we have to eat in a poorly ventilated, non-air conditioned tent that can only be appreciated when one has seen the tv show M*A*S*H*. There are no cooked meals to speak of here. We subsist on MREs – Meal Ready to Eat. I can’t stand them, but they provide much needed calories and nutrients. And for those who wonder, there is no plumbing. We relieve ourselves in holes in the ground….literally.

At night, it is pitch black. There is no ambient light at all. The stars are so bright and so big that it feels like the sky is going to fall on your head. You can actually see the different colors of the stars because there is no cloud cover, no haze, no pollution. Gee, if it wasn’t for the roadside bombs, bullets, and the Taliban, this place might actually pass for peaceful.

Actually, I kind of like it here. There is a simplicity to this place that reminds you of what is truly important. I have plenty of time on my hands right now (but our mission begins shortly, so that could all change). I pass the time by reading and trying to help out. Right now, we are constructing a facility that will serve as a temporary holding cell for any detainees that we might capture. It’s manual labor, the kind of stuff you watch on HGTV. But it needs to be done, so I do what I can. I actually built the little table upon which the computer I am typing onto sits. How Bob Villa of me. I also drafted the Operating Procedures for the holding cell, to make sure that we are in compliance with Geneva Conventions and all that stuff. I think the detainees will actually have better living conditions than we do. But, we volunteered for this, or so goes the logic of this place.

This place is actually a British place. They built it, and they are its permanent occupants. We are merely guests of Her Majesty’s Armed Forces. The Brits, by all accounts, know how to “rough it.” I observe them sunbathing at the end of a long day, playing cricket or table tennis during downtime, taking real showers. None of that for us Marines. We have to make ourselves as miserable as possible in order to enjoy ourselves. Showers? That’s why they invented baby wipes. Recreation? That would be almost like having “fun”. If the Marine Corps wanted Marines to have fun, they would have issued it to us.

In all honesty, I am doing well here. I am one of those people who has a high pain threshold, but hates to be uncomfortable. But I have found that once you accept in your mind that you are going to be hot, filthy, and generally disgusting for the next however many weeks, you give in to it and you can actually embrace it and…dare I say…enjoy it.

Afghan Interpreters and Missing American

From Michael:

21April08

We received our Afghan interpreters last week. They are living with us now, eating with us, bathing with us. They are Afghans who have come back to help fight the Taliban in their own way. I met one while huddled in our bomb shelter after a rocket attack. His name is M.. and he is from Kabul . He lived in Amsterdam for 9 years. In my opinion, anyone who lived in Amsterdam that long cannot possibly be a radical Muslim. M.. told me that he fears for his life, and that of his family. If the Taliban find out what he is doing, they will kill his family. What a brave soul! If I thought that my family was at risk by my being here, I don’t know if I’d be able to do it. But it’s his country, and I am certainly happy to see that there are at least some with a vested interest in it.

Today, as I was walking back from dinner, I saw some of the interpreters trying to work out with our weights. It was a funny sight, as they seemed very uncoordinated and unsure of how to perform certain movements that we as Americans take for granted. Even more amusing was the sight of the Afghan interpreters trying to learn baseball from their American Marine counterparts. I can imagine baseball being quite difficult for someone who has never played, as I involves good hand-eye coordination. We Americans forget how easy it comes to us as we have played most of our lives.

“Miss[ing] America ”

I just finished putting some more songs onto my iPod. The iPod, along with the Playstation Portable, is probably the best way to pass the many hours of downtime. As I was transferring music, I started to listen to some of my favorite songs. I decided to look at some of my photos stored on my computer. Bad move. You see, I am a very nostalgic person. Nothing stirs my sense of emotion and nostalgia like music and old photos. As I sat there staring a pictures of my family, I was taken back to those times when the photos were taken. I was immediately overwhelmed with a sense of longing and guilt. I long more than anything else to go back to that place, that time when I had nothing better to do than to spend my time loving my family. Then the guilt of realizing that I had not taken full advantage of each and every opportunity to do so. I had missed out on so many of the little moments that life gift wraps for us. I began to think about what else I had missed. I looked at the background of the photos and began to think about how great America is. My street is surrounded by trees, houses with neatly manicured lawns, automobiles - one of the enduring symbols of American independence and free spiritedness - glistening in the sun. My street looks so safe, so welcoming so far away from the rockets, the bullets, the IEDs. Far away from the constant drone of helicopters and cargo planes. Far away from the constant dust. No tree-lined streets here. O ur streets are lined with port-a-johns.

I miss driving to Wal-Mart to run an errand. I miss plopping down on my couch to watch a tv show. I miss going out to eat. I miss the little things that makes America so American – Monday Night Football, game shows, soap operas (okay, I don’t miss soap operas), wide open spaces. But most of all, I miss spending time with my family. I lay in bed wondering if Roman is talking yet or how soon it will be. Surely he’s able to mutter a few broken words by now? He was walking when I left, perhaps now he is running? I miss Sami. Her stubbornness, her sweetness, the way she would run to me when I got home from work. I miss the sound of her little voice. I miss Mikey. His carefree spirit, his love of cars and airplanes. I want so badly to take him camping…or on a nature walk by the fishing pond. I miss sitting down to watch Cars with him. I miss throwing my kids in the air. I miss Kelle. I miss the way we complete each other during intelligent conversation, the way she understands me, the way she takes care of me, the fact that she loves me despite my flaws, I miss her touch, her sound, I miss looking into her eyes.

I can’t wait to get home to recapture all of those moments. And that is why I believe, I truly believe in my heart, despite all of the fear within me, that I will make it home safely. Because I have so much to do, so much life to live, so much of myself to give. I have to make up for all the lost moments. And…I can’t wait to go shopping again!

And that is what I miss about America .

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Please, comment here

Please read on, I would like your opinion...

The other day, I was at Wal-mart doing a grocery run. Of course, I was on my own with all three of my small children (meaning that it was not a simple task). I really dislike the big carts because they're like navigating semi trucks and they cause more problems between the kids than they are worth. Not to mention, it's rare to find that all the buckles work. So, I chose to take a normal cart and put my smallest child in the seat and train/scold/threaten the other two to stay near the cart as we all navigate through the store. This actually goes alright except for my dawdling daughter's slow-poky nature.

Anyway, I gathered all my groceries and began to head towards the check-outs. But, I decided to pass by the dresses because I need a new dress for a banquet coming up. I thought I'd just see what they had. Well, I found a clearance rack full of some pretty nice (and obviously cheap) dresses. Perhaps deciding to consider Wal-mart dresses for a banquet was my first mistake and then choosing to browse and collect dresses at the end of a grocery trip with two small children enjoying gymnastics on the clothing racks was my second mistake (remember the third child is strapped in). However, I was determined to find a good deal on a dress and they had some pretty cute dresses. So, I picked up four and headed to the dressing rooms with all kids and groceries in tow.

Upon arrival to the dressing room I found three workers. I had draped the dresses over the end of the cart (I ran out of hands about 3 years ago) so I looked up to the lady and said to her that I had four dresses. She said that I would need to hand them to her to be sure. Then she proceeded to tell me that I would not be able to take the cart into the dressing room because I had so many items in my cart.

I get this often so I began to assess the situation and the possibilities (usually people are reasonable and work with my limited resources). I looked at the dressing rooms to determine if the doors and walls allowed for an escape of a child. There was plenty of room underneath the door. I imagined myself half-dressed with two children in a dressing room with the messy and chaotic clothing racks as a maze to maneuver as the third child expertly escapes into the Wal-mart. I thought to myself am I willing to handle that situation - quick answer: NO. So then, I assessed some more and saw that there was a large dressing room available with plenty of room for the cart.

At this point (about 10 seconds after she said I would need to leave the cart outside) I looked up at the lady and said that I couldn't do that because my youngest (currently strapped into the cart) would escape underneath the doors. She replied with [pay attention here, this is the part that I want your input on] "you can take the children in with you or I can watch the baby for you but you cannot take the cart in with you."

Okay, so let me give you some more detail. I had enough groceries that I couldn't just take them out and set them aside but less than a total of $70 worth with the most expensive item being a box of wipes for $10. And, I wanted to try on dresses that ranged in cost from $10 to $13. However, she was willing to watch my child for me so that I wouldn't be a threat to steal something potentially as expensive as a $13 dress. I suppose, if I were a career thief, I could have been thinking big and hidden something small but expensive in my cart. But really, how expensive must it be to say that watching my child would be the item of lesser value.

I looked at her with an exasperated look and confirmed that she was unwilling to work with me. So I responded: "Well, I guess you'll be putting some dresses away." I plopped all the dresses on her pile of clothes to sort and yelled to the kids who were already in the large dressing room (they've done this before) to come because this lady wouldn't let us try on dresses. She then gave me a look of surprise like, "Oh, but you can, I'll watch the baby for you!" ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

Now, perhaps you think I'm overreacting, but this isn't the first time this has happened to me. Once I was at the exit of a Wal-mart with purchased groceries and entering the bathroom. I had already been checked by the "loss-prevention lady" but she still stopped me to tell me that I wasn't allowed to take the cart into the restroom. I told her I needed the cart to contain my children while we all used the facilities. She proceeded to ask what I would be doing in the restroom (I promise, I'm not exaggerating at all). She realized quickly (perhaps my look told her she had gone too far) that she had asked something absurd and then offered to watch my child. Now come on, seriously. Her job is to check for loss-prevention at the exit. My child would have been on wheels ready to cart right out of the store. Again, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

I could go on with other examples, but I think I've made my point. Here's my question: Is it over-reacting and too obstinate of me to think that a little compromise is reasonable in my situation?

I guess I'm saying that I feel entitled to some rules-bending, but am I so wrong? They offered to watch my child. Do you really think that's in the rules book? Do you think it says in the Employee Manual to offer to watch a person's child in order to obey a rule? I really hope not!

I firmly believe that it's important to make the customer happy. That's what makes return customers. And, that's what creates new customers by word of mouth. Financially it is always (perhaps there are some very rare exceptions) in the best interest for the company to make the customer happy.

But wouldn't it be easier to allow me in the dressing room with $70 worth of groceries rather than offer to watch my child, something I consider so valuable I would die for it.

Please, give me your comments. I'm dying to know. I admit, I can be stubborn, but am I absurd?

Friday, April 18, 2008

Two Marine's Lost

I just read in David Wood's blog (see the embedded journalist blog link to the right) about two Marine's with Michael dying this week. It was an IED. David writes much about how they learn to detect and avoid those because they are the largest threat. But, unfortunately, these two Marine's were killed by an IED.

Of course, quickly, I wondered to myself about the likelihood of my husband being in the same situation. Perhaps Michael's not in much danger. However, IED's are dangerous because they are everywhere and hard to spot. If he's out, he's susceptible.

But, I believe that the safest place is in God's will and that's where I believe he is. I know that I have no reason to fear because of the verse God gave me this afternoon before ever reading about these two Marines. He gave me this to meditate on today:

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

I skipped ahead in my study and saw that I'll be focusing more on that verse tomorrow and will get to look into the Hebrew. God truly knows what we need.

On that note, we also need to keep our focus off ourselves. We cannot worry about tomorrow and ourselves. Two men died. I don't know much about them. But, I know they will be missed and they were strong and courageous.

Dear Lord, I lift the families of the fallen Marine's up to you now and pray that they will be strong and courageous in this time of sadness and mourning. Give them the support and wisdom necessary to make it through these next couple weeks. Please also bless them for their great sacrifice. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Stay tuned...

I'm having a great time at the Heartbeat Conference. It's really been a vacation. I'm feeling inspired and motivated. I can't wait to tell all and post more! Pictures to come too...

Tiny cog... on the cusp of something great

15 April 2008

Last week, I had the opportunity to meet with like officers to organize. When you have 40 nations, each with their own histories, their own laws, their own prejudices and attitudes towards warfare, it can be a daunting task to come up with a framework for conducting military operations. Then add to that the fact that we are trying to do this whole thing with honor and integrity, with a basic respect for humanity and the value of human life, and it can be overwhelming. So here were 4 officers like me from 3 different nations, trying to come up with a plan for how to make sure that all of the nations that are involved can, in essence, look themselves in the proverbial mirror. As I sat there and realized just how incredible and important a task that was, I became acutely aware of the fact that I am just one small part of something much larger than myself. I am but a tiny cog in a massive machine. I must be on the cusp of something great. How fortunate and blessed I am to have this opportunity.

I find myself getting into a steady routine. I get up, run/work out, shower, eat breakfast, go to meetings, check e-mail, read my book (currently reading Kite Runner), work out some more, go to lunch, read some more, play Playstation Portable (a must-have for any deployed serviceman), work out yet again, shower again, eat dinner, check e-mail again, watch a DVD (currently watching Lost season 2, perhaps the most addictive tv show ever), play some more Playstation, read some more, go to bed. Sounds pretty monotonous, but it could be worse. When we go out to conduct combat missions “outside the wire”, there won’t be any creature comforts other than a book. No iPod, no Playstation, no gym. We have to sleep in one-man tents made of mesh to keep mosquitoes out. Malaria is a very real threat. In fact, we have to take anti-malaria medicine every week. It has some strange side effects, including abnormal dreams. What is abnormal for a Marine? Puppy dogs and butterflies maybe? I’ll take abnormal dreams over malaria any day. Nevertheless, the prospect of real combat looms near, like a storm rolling in on the horizon. As the lawyer, I doubt I will see any real combat, which suits me just fine. I’m not here for personal glory. I just want to do my job and go home. But, if it does happen, I wonder how I will react? What if I see a fellow Marine hurt or killed? What if it’s someone I know? I can’t answer these questions. All I can do is trust God.


Love, M

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Overcoming a Giant

I have a couple overwhelming fears looming inside of me on a regular basis. One in particular continues to perculate deep inside me. I thought it would help me solidify my thoughts on overcoming my everpresent concerns if I articulate my encouragement here.

My main giant of a concern is the looming possibility of national leadership promoting universal healthcare, higher taxes, pulling out of conflicts without regard to resolution, and assisting and encouraging irresponsible decisions. I realize many agree with the presented solutions, but I honestly believe these solutions if implemented will send the country I love so dearly into an even deeper pit.

So then, how do I overcome this giant in my life. First, I must resort to what I know is true. I know that God has promised that He will have victory and He is on my side. That is my primary comfort.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Not only is He victorious in the end, but He also has plans for me and my country. He had plans for Joshua and Caleb and their ancesters and in the end, they saw His plans victorious. The two of them stood against the other 10 leaders that were speaking a mix of truths and hyperbole and in the beginning, Joshua, Caleb, and their people suffered. They were not able to reach the promiseland until much later. But, they did reach the promiseland.

"These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world." John 16:33

Perhaps you disagree with every point I have made here today, except that you also struggle with the looming state of current affairs today. I pray that you would also find courage and strength in God's Word and allow it an opportunity to encourage you as it does me.

Afghanistan Bazaar

Letter from M:
Sunday, April 6, 2008

One of the things about setting up camp right next to an airfield, a military airfield no less, is that there is a constant – and I do mean constant as in 24 hours a day, 7 days a week – roar of helicopters, cargo planes, and jet fighters taking off and landing. Off in the distance, we can hear automatic machine gun fire. Who knows if it is merely a group of troops training or if it is real? The easiest way to tell is when we drive by one of our coalition partners’ compounds and see their national flag at half staff. It drives home the reality of where we are and why we are here. That reality becomes even more stark every time I walk out of my tent and am confronted by a massive concrete bunker, put there to protect us from mortars and rockets. At the foot of my bed sits my body armor and my Kevlar helmet. The interesting thing is that despite all of these elements of warfare, we all go about our daily affairs as if there was no threat. We are all acutely aware that a very dangerous force exists that seeks to do us harm, but that the best way to combat it to give fear no quarter. So, our inherent desire for normalcy drives us to act…um, normal.

Yesterday, I went to the main part of the base for a training class. The class was scheduled for 2pm, but I got there at around 11am, so I had some time to kill. I went down to the bazaar, which is held every Saturday. The local merchants come onto the base with their black-market DVDs, Afghan rugs (probably made in China ), and all sorts of little trinkets. I had some hours to burn, and I was by myself, so I took my time walking around and observing the true international nature of the place. Here was I, a half-Chinese, half-American US Marine, walking around a bazaar in Afghanistan, amidst a crowd of Dutch, British, Australian, Canadian, French, Belgian, Danish, UAE, Kenyan, and American troops. Fortunately, language is no barrier since everyone speaks English, and the almighty US dollar is the international currency of business. I came across some interesting items, such as a marble carving of the Last Supper. I thought this was supposed to be a Muslim nation. Apparently, the Taliban didn’t eradicate all remnants of Christianity, although they infamously destroyed the reknowned Bahmian Bhuddist statues in central Afghanistan . I’m not even Bhuddist and it makes me sick to my stomach to think that those statues stood for centuries and some Islamic zealots decided that they should be destroyed.

There are lots of Afghan rug merchants. I have been trying to learn how to tell the authentic, hand-woven rugs from the machine woven rugs from China . They also have these beautiful scarves that come in just about any color. They are very thin, but very soft and warm, or so I am told. Another merchant sells traditional Afghan hats, which most of them wear themselves, removing any doubt as to authenticity. Perhaps I’ll get one. Probably the most interesting merchant was one that sold relics of the war with the Soviet Union . There were old Soviet belt buckles, replete with hammer and sickle. There were old (very old) muskets that looked like they were from the Civil War, but were probably used within the past half-century. I like to collect knives, and this guy had lots of cool looking Afghan knives, so I will probably go back for one of those. They also sold brass sextants, used by seafarers to find their way across oceans. The sextants are engraved with the name of some company purporting to be from London , England , dated 1917. I have no idea as to authenticity, especially given the fact that Afghanistan is a land-locked country. Don’t know how land-locked hillsmen use sextants, but they sure look cool. Every price is negotiable. The young Afghan quoted me a price of $90 for the sextant, but within a matter of minutes, I had him down to $55, simply because I expressed disinterest in the item. That’s the key, if they think you want it, they’ll stick to their price harder. If they get the sense that you aren’t really interested, they will really bargain with you. There were some other little kiosks that sold some neat things. One little shop had a crowd, so I went to explore. It turned out to be a precious gem dealer. Apparently, the foreign troops were impressed with the quality. I don’t know what kind of precious stones Afghanistan is known for, but the Afghan merchant had all kinds of devices that measure the quality of a particular gem. Maybe they are real after all.

If anyone would like me to buy them something, please let me know and I will do what I can. As an officer, I can go to the bazaar whenever I like, and it’s not much trouble for me to mail stuff home.

Work has been steady, but relatively light. I am fast becoming an expert on all fiscal law matters. I think our ability to pour money into the local Afghan economy can be an invaluable tool, and even a weapon, that can garner favor with the local Afghan populace. Most of them are relatively neutral with respect to our presence. They don’t like the Taliban, but they don’t like us that much either, so they remain on the fence. If we can improve their lives, even for a temporary time, by enabling them to enjoy a bit of economic prosperity, then perhaps we can win a few hearts and minds. Perhaps it will mean the difference between friendly passage through a particular town versus being hit by IEDs along the way? I always stress to the young, junior Marines that their individual actions can, and do, have strategic impact at a very high level. If one 19-year old Marine does something to offend a local, that local may in turn report to his village elder, who will then declare that his village is off-limits to Americans. In a matter of moments, we have just lost what could have been a strategic foothold, all because some kid wasn’t thinking about the consequences of his actions. Generally speaking, however, Marines are well-trained and want to do the right thing. It is always that 10% who allow their emotions to control them and ruin it for the rest of us.

Today is Sunday, which usually means a day of rest for the Marines. Of course, in a combat zone, this merely means that we slow down. We never stop. Inertia and momentum are important. But I enjoy Sundays because I can go to church services. It is the one thing that reminds me of home more than anything else, because no matter where I am on earth, worshipping God is the same. Everything around me disappears for a short time, and I can be alone with God in my mind. There is no roar of jets, no threat of mortars or rockets, no physical enemy. It is a place of peace.

I hope everyone is enjoying springtime in America . I miss you all and think of you often.

Love,

M

Friday, April 4, 2008

Sibling Rivalry

Pictures of true sibling rivalry. Yes, it looks as though Sami pushes Roman through, and honestly, that's probably what happened. But then, note the second picture. If you'll notice to the left in the picture are the tips of Sami's hands and feet clinging to the top of the cushion. BTW - She's screaming for help while I take the picture (also while laughing of course)!

Karaoking









I just wanted everyone to get to see how cute my family is when they're having fun. I wanted to say musical, but that would be pretty much incorrect. If you could hear this picture you would probably cover your ears. There were four different beats to four different songs. But of course, as the mother, I thought it was beautiful music!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Jesus and boo boos...

Tonight, during our scripture time, Sami told me that Jesus died on the cross and got lots of boo boos. I told her she was right, but I still couldn't help giggling...

Michael in Afghanistan




Michael sent a couple of pictures for his birthday. It's nice to have a visual of where he lives.
The first picture is just of him and his surroundings - dirt.
Michael says he's growing a mustache because locals believe that if you don't have facial hair you're either a woman or you're homosexual. I find this humorous because he hates his mustache. At home, he never misses a day of shaving his mustache atleast once. His mustache is still undetectable in his picture.

You can also see his home that he is sharing with several other officers. It's good that guys don't need to nest much or that they don't care much about decorations. Although, you can see they've tried some decorating.
Michael's area makes me a laugh a little because it's not completely different from his area at home. He has books piled up with his everyday essentials also piled up around him. I personally would lose my mind without more organization, but he seems to work well with just having everything within reach and not placed in containers.

If you go to the link to the journalist embedded with Michael (I believe he's actually one of the guys in Michael's tent) he writes about how carefully the guys make sure other Marine's space is respected. Specifically, he writes that the Marine's always carefully wipe off the sink for the next marine. As a wife, this is a bit annoying, because he rarely does the same for me.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Scripture Thoughts

The last couple of days I have read a couple of scriptures that I really want to type out so that I am more likely to solidify them in my heart and actions.

The first is regarding the children:

As for you, my son [or daughter] Solomon, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a whole heart and a willing mind; for the LORD searches all hearts, and understands every intent of the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will let you find Him; but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.
-- 1 Chronicles 28:9-10

The second is regarding servant leadership which I believe is synonymous with parenting. To give quick context, David has given tons and tons of gold and silver for the building of the Temple and the people followed.

Then the people rejoiced because they had offered so willingly, for they made their offering to the LORD with a whole heart, and King David also rejioced greatly.
-- 1 Chronicles 29:9

Both verses convict me toward my own behavior. I must exhibit and model the first verse so that my children will understand and know how to follow this command. In the second verse, I want to live this example for my children, but also for others around me in a way that offers encouragement and motivation to give to and serve the Lord.

Michael's Birthday

Today is Michael's birthday. For his birthday he made a call to us. The last time I spoke with him was Easter. I'm conflicted on my feelings toward my infrequent conversations with him. Of course, I love hearing his voice and he says the same. It's also important for the kids to hear his voice. The kids faces all lit up when they heard his voice. Plus, he was able to hear the beautiful rendition of your children singing you "Happy Birthday".

However, it took three tries and by the time we ended the conversation, we spent more time sitting in the car of the Wal-mart parking lot waiting on his call than actually speaking with him.

Oh well, in typing this, I've decided, it's still worth it.